Pandas: ValueError: cannot convert float NaN to integer

I get ValueError: cannot convert float NaN to integer for following:

df = pandas.read_csv('zoom11.csv')
df[['x']] = df[['x']].astype(int)

The "x" is a column in the csv file, I cannot spot any float NaN in the file, and I don't understand the error or why I am getting it.
When I read the column as String, then it has values like -1,0,1,...2000, all look very nice int numbers to me.
When I read the column as float, then this can be loaded. Then it shows values as -1.0,0.0 etc, still there are no any NaN-s
I tried with error_bad_lines = False and dtype parameter in read_csv to no avail. It just cancels loading with same exception.
The file is not small (10+ M rows), so cannot inspect it manually, when I extract a small header part, then there is no error, but it happens with full file. So it is something in the file, but cannot detect what.
Logically the csv should not have missing values, but even if there is some garbage then I would be ok to skip the rows. Or at least identify them, but I do not see way to scan through file and report conversion errors.

Update: Using the hints in comments/answers I got my data clean with this:

# x contained NaN
df = df[~df['x'].isnull()]

# Y contained some other garbage, so null check was not enough
df = df[df['y'].str.isnumeric()]

# final conversion now worked
df[['x']] = df[['x']].astype(int)
df[['y']] = df[['y']].astype(int)

Solution

For identifying NaN values use boolean indexing:

print(df[df['x'].isnull()])

Then for removing all non-numeric values use to_numeric with parameter errors='coerce' - to replace non-numeric values to NaNs:

df['x'] = pd.to_numeric(df['x'], errors='coerce')

And for remove all rows with NaNs in column x use dropna:

df = df.dropna(subset=['x'])

Last convert values to ints:

df['x'] = df['x'].astype(int)